Bitches Aint Worth Losing Sleep Over

I watched as the girl of my dreams was flirting with my friend Adam, the three of us went down to the river to just walk around. I leave for 2mins to pick up a phone call, I come back and it felt like my heart had just stopped beating. I see them both being all touchy feely with eachother, and I feel sick to my stomach. I’m too scared to tell her how I feel for her, but at the same time, our friendship is too important to me to mess that up. She knows I’m gay, but thinks I’m still hung up on my ex. I just want to crawl up in a ball and cry. The 2 people I confide in the most, and now I can’t talk to either of them. I just want to disappear and never be found.